UNBIASED ABUSE

You ever had that one that you can’t get over, the more they beat you up the more you try to get closer, it’s like they have a Svengali hold over your very soul, you’re dealing with a master of strings, they have long evolved from the pinky ring

You make a mistake it’s a declaration of war, they make a mistake you getting up off the floor, I didn’t  think you majored in indentured servitude, I thought you were on some Elroy Jetson shit trying to get to the moon, I don’t care what color it is don’t let that black hole stop you, I’m not a rocket scientist but I know love’s not supposed to sock you, but ultimately it is your life to live, I just hope you don’t lose it just to find out somebody had fux to give

#LEXICONKILLER

UNBIASED ABUSE

You ever had that one that you can’t get over, the more they beat you up the more you try to get closer, it’s like they have a Svengali hold over your very soul, you’re dealing with a master of strings, they have long evolved from the pinky ring

You make a mistake it’s a declaration of war, they make a mistake you getting up off the floor, I didn’t  think you majored in indentured servitude, I thought you were on some Elroy Jetson shit trying to get to the moon, I don’t care what color it is don’t let that black hole stop you, I’m not a rocket scientist but I know love’s not supposed to sock you, but ultimately it is your life to live, I just hope you don’t lose it just to find out somebody had fux to give

#LEXICONKILLER

NOVA DEX

I pick up this pen and turn into a serial killer again, who’s gonna catch it the hate or something from within, life really deserves it for these conundrums I face, but you good cuz at least I don’t have any open case, I could go after the Ex’s that used to sex me and let go of some of these frustrations that still vex me, but I’m a changed man now so I let bygones be bygones, I try my best to meditate and press on and bless on, or I could go at the judicial, but I made that mistake one time before and they definitely hold it against you.. and just for the record I don’t want any issue, so I guess it’s Nova Dex versus one of his demons, that means I’m about to write something that you won’t believe that I was seeing, but trust me it’s just a day in the life of an  extraordinary human being

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EMOTIONAL SUICIDE πŸ’”

This rainy weather has me wondering what to do, I swear I’m out here talking like it’s just me and you

My muse is my monster that I created from nights I should have just masturbated

Nights I could have just come home lonely, but it was damn near impossible with all these females on me

I gave in to temptation like a sodomite, two eights make a sixteen and they down to dyke

Instances like that tipped the scale, or when I would be verbally abusive coming home ripped as hell

You can go ahead and leave this is not an abduction, have you ever seen someone’s eyes turn to hate from seduction ?

Those tears turned into laughter and the more she pulled away the more I ran after but I was never fast enough to recapture

The closest I’ve come is love letters and apologies, oh and Poems from The Trap Vol. 1 the anthology

CEE NOVA DICHOTOMY

Hi my name is Nova; I’m addicted to everything, red bones, money phones, indica and sleeping alone

Hi my name is Nova; I’m addicted to everything, attention whore, jewelery store, couple cars, we need more

Hi my name in Nova I’m addicted to everything, fresh out Riverside regional ready to let my nuts hang, gotta a girl that say she love me and imma try my best, but I’m addicted to double D’s on every girls chest

Hi my name is Nova a certified problem, I get this guy into all kind of conundrums sit back and see if he can solve em

Hi my name is Cee; I’m addicted to everything my family, my son, sativa, the peace it bring

Hi my name is Cee; I’m addicted to everything mental health, mental wealth and memories on a shelf

Hi my name is Cee, and I gotta fix everything grandiose asshole did, I had to use all of his money to fight to see our kid, Hi my name is Cee, I’m a proud black father, I refuse to raise another Nova I’m shooting for a road scholar, a Titan of industry or artist like me, I will bend reality to manifest his destiny

Hi my name is Cee I’m a reformed womanizer, I had to go through hell to become a black love realiser, Hi my name is Cee and I played with a lot of hearts, it’s one in particular I have to fix that I tore apart, Hi my name is Cee I’m on a mission for redemption I came from the bottom bear witness to my ascension

LET IT LONE

Let it lone time to turn the page go to the hobby store and buy you some sage, let the pain dissipate, in the fuk shit you don’t have to participate, take that energy and transform it into a tangible entity, the universe will place everything at your feet you don’t have to search for chemistry, it’s easy to lose yourself replaying prior events when you do that you welcome memories of nonsense, I’m not just speaking from an outside view, believe it or not I’ve played the fool a time or two, I’m just trying to give you the cheat code for everything I’ve been through, remember I’ve survived a terrorist and her insurgent crew

BALL & CHAIN

I love her because she doesn’t except anything but the best from me if she feels like I’m not trying she won’t be complacent with less from me and she doesn’t need me monetarily

From the outside it looks like she’s always riding my back but most times I’m procrastinating and she loves me enough not to go for that

Only the two of us know everything that really transpires, both of us hurt each other pull out cans and fan the fires, sometimes I have too much fun and need a P.O. sometimes I need someone to tell me places not to go, she has a good heart and a nerd like Steve Urkel, luckily she has me to pluck squares out of her circle

Pillow talk and the dreams we share in common fuel the fire our twin flames burn in our soul, we’re on some other other shit which makes us love bold, we say things we don’t mean just to be the one upper, things that make me order out and not eat her supper, everybody loves both of us so they try and intervene, but we’re trying something new conflict resolution over Wintergreen, it’s been working please continue to pray for us, we got this just please stay out the way of us

COULD A SHOULD A WOULD A

The past is the past let that shit die, it is what it is stop asking why, for every great day it has to be an antithesis, for you not to believe in that is just ridiculous, things don’t always work out some plans are made to fail, if everybody got into heaven it wouldn’t be a need for a hell, people die everyday from stray rounds, and some people cry out for help and we turn away pretending not to hear the sound, the world we live in is a messed up place, case in point the good people usually finish last in the race, we can smile and continue to pretend, or we can free our minds become something else and transcend