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100 JANTS (PTSD)

I have to move through life like I have a hundred bricks on me at all times, I can’t drift and drive I have to stay  between the lines, I have to remember that I’m always going to be the aggressor even in situations where I had to apply no pressure, 6′ 2″ 220 bald head black male with a beard, I’m the usual suspect and I just got here, my tattoos automatically mean thug Life, but if you look closer all you’ll see is my child and my future wife, yes I do feel like I need a gun because I’m going to get shot in the back if I run, give me the same dignity that you give Tommie the dog, you can’t be mad at me because my mind is digital and you stuck on analog, I hold doors and take my elders groceries in the house, I just want you to know I’m tired of being emasculated and why I might want to punch you in the mouth

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SAVING YOU

Any animosity or problems I may have had, I leave them in yesterday where they can do no bad

If I dwell and let them fester, I promise you I’ll be more the joker than a jester

My mind moves very fast, to the point I’ve seen your future in my past, you can’t jump over the fire you have to walk through and to be honest I don’t think it’s in you

Stay on the sidewalk and keep your pass, but just know I do reserve the right to pull out this pen and ether your ass

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96 PAC

For one you can’t buy me, for two you scared to try me, so three stay from round me, if I waste a charge on you my homies gonna clown me

You a grimey pussy and I am trying to push you, soon as you build up some testicular fortitude I’mma douche you

I hate when people misunderstand evolution as being weak, you wake up with a shitbag I’m pretty sure you’ll be more careful as to what you speak

All I’m saying is I’m not tolerating noooo disrespect, I only do one-arm push-ups because imma try to smack your head off your neck, I’m aiming for the cervical spine seven vertebrae, hopefully I won’t have to say it no more right go left when I have to repeat what I say

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4.83%

When I met you I had a ace showing trying to flip a queen, the deck was stacked already but to me yet to be seen, it took me awhile to realize who was really dealing, I got a icebox no room for feelings, I split the cards doubled down and tried to play two hands, the look on your face should have told me that I really didn’t understand, I put everything on the line based on one card flip, I mean I bet the farm it was going to be glory or hardship, I thought the bluff was working we were at a two-year stalemate, unbenounced to me she knew the flip hoping I would cooperate, NOPE… all nuts no brain, when she flipped that card I was not prepared for what came, my baby took me clean out the door, that card hit the table like she been training with Thor, I immediately started doing math, I just lost everything and still owe half

CONGRATULATIONS super magnificent spit game you did it again, because of you we lost our girl our future and MY best friend..

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4.83%

When I met you I had a ace showing trying to flip a queen, the deck was stacked already but to me yet to be seen, it took me awhile to realize who was really dealing, I got a icebox no room for feelings, I split the cards doubled down and tried to play two hands, the look on your face should have told me that I really didn’t understand, I put everything on the line based on one card flip, I mean I bet the farm it was going to be glory or hardship, I thought the bluff was working we were at a two-year stalemate, unbenounced to me she knew the flip hoping I would cooperate, NOPE… all nuts no brain, when she flipped that card I was not prepared for what came, my baby took me clean out the door, that card hit the table like she been training with Thor, I immediately started doing math, I just lost everything and still owe half

CONGRATULATIONS super magnificent spit game you did it again, because of you we lost our girl our future and MY best friend..

#LEXICONKILLER

4.83%

When I met you I had a ace showing trying to flip a queen, the deck was stacked already but to me yet to be seen, it took me awhile to realize who was really dealing, I got a icebox no room for feelings, I split the cards doubled down and tried to play two hands, the look on your face should have told me that I really didn’t understand, I put everything on the line based on one card flip, I mean I bet the farm it was going to be glory or hardship, I thought the bluff was working we were at a two-year stalemate, unbenounced to me she knew the flip hoping I would cooperate, NOPE… all nuts no brain, when she flipped that card I was not prepared for what came, my baby took me clean out the door, that card hit the table like she been training with Thor, I immediately started doing math, I just lost everything and still owe half

CONGRATULATIONS super magnificent spit game you did it again, because of you we lost our girl our future and MY best friend..

#LEXICONKILLER

4.83%

When I met you I had a ace showing trying to flip a queen, the deck was stacked already but to me yet to be seen, it took me awhile to realize who was really dealing, I got a icebox no room for feelings, I split the cards doubled down and tried to play two hands, the look on your face should have told me that I really didn’t understand, I put everything on the line based on one card flip, I mean I bet the farm it was going to be glory or hardship, I thought the bluff was working we were at a two-year stalemate, unbenounced to me she knew the flip hoping I would cooperate, NOPE… all nuts no brain, when she flipped that card I was not prepared for what came, my baby took me clean out the door, that card hit the table like she been training with Thor, I immediately started doing math, I just lost everything and still owe half

CONGRATULATIONS super magnificent spit game you did it again, because of you we lost our girl our future and MY best friend..

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IF ONLY

This is one from my book Poems from the trap volume 1. I don’t always talk about nefarious activities, it gets emotional too, but don’t get it twisted

Give me one more chance and I’ll write all my wrongs, give me one more chance and I’ll write you a song

I’ll tell the world that you are my universe, I’ll tell the stars that you cum first

You can look at my sleeves & see tattoo tears, If you look in my eyes you’ll see a lot of regret and wishing you were here

I been working my way back to you
I’m six two but my soul grew and my common sense too

Y’all come first over everything in existence, It was a revolution and I didn’t miss it

Black love is the most beautiful on Earth and a black woman is the mother of birth

No blessings will come to me until I do right by you, and I pray I can fall asleep every night next to you

Dear higher power please hear my words, I came back from the edge to be what they deserve

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NOVA DEX

I pick up this pen and turn into a serial killer again, who’s gonna catch it the hate or something from within, life really deserves it for these conundrums I face, but you good cuz at least I don’t have any open case, I could go after the Ex’s that used to sex me and let go of some of these frustrations that still vex me, but I’m a changed man now so I let bygones be bygones, I try my best to meditate and press on and bless on, or I could go at the judicial, but I made that mistake one time before and they definitely hold it against you.. and just for the record I don’t want any issue, so I guess it’s Nova Dex versus one of his demons, that means I’m about to write something that you won’t believe that I was seeing, but trust me it’s just a day in the life of an  extraordinary human being

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OH

I used to be brutally honest but then you turn me into a liar, I fell in love with you but pimp juice wasn’t ready to retire, I had a stable full I was a V12 raging bull, they were gullwing but not doors; I’m trying to say I was running through whores, but I had a princess at home who was strong as lumber I told them about you before I even got a phone number, I think that made them want me even more, I was five letters away from a perfect alphabet score yeah LMNOP fell like in 03; but I always told them the truth because I cared about you, and the first time they said anything  disrespectful we were through, oh ok yeah I think I get it now that I said it out loud, the crazy thing is I started writing this proud, and now I’m doubting whether or not I should even give it to the crowd