NOVA’S ROOM (A TRUE STORY)

Cups full of Patron I need to sober up and go home, I been in this bar far too long every drink getting way too strong, I got this one number in my phone that I really wanna call up.. but lately I REALLY been fukin up, word is she happy with this new guy so I probably shouldn’t even try

but I been drinking so much that I’mma hit her up like… fuk that dude he can’t compete with the past I know you miss the times we had, I SAID fuk that dude he’s definitely not me and since you picked up I feel like my chances 50/50

I’m just saying I thought you ain’t  like pretty dudes tell me I’m lying and I’ll skip straight to the interlude, I’m just saying I didn’t think that was your type and I’mma roast him only if you make me aight

Nah cups of that goose, got me on the loose, saw your whole crew ask about you they said you had something else to do, what you doing that’s so important lemme find out pretty boy got you out courtin

I’m so ripped that I’mma call you anyway and say.. fuk that dude he can’t compete with the past I know you miss the times we had, I SAID fuk that dude he’s definitely not me and since you picked up I feel like my chances 50/50

I’m just saying I thought you ain’t  like pretty dudes tell me I’m lying and I’ll skip straight to the interlude, I’m just saying I didn’t think that was your type and I’mma roast him only if you make me aight

I think I’m addicted to that new, to hear the sound and what the face look like too, I know I sound like a dirt bag, but I’m still trying to save what we had, you still mad? we threw a party yeah a kickback, she came over and yeah I hit that, I’m being honest… talk to me I need you in my life, I need you here to make everything right, I had some women that were living off me seeing as how you know about one I won’t mention the other three

Look too many drinks have been given to me after a while babe they all sound the same, I’m sorry I made you a player in this game, I’ve had sex five times this week if you want I’ll explain, having a hard time navigating my Lane, they wanna go like rabbits it’s insane

It’s Friday night I called talking crazy I’m lucky you answered you can be lazy, I’ll do all the work I’m trying to get under that skirt, oh I’m sorry I’m tryna see if you down, let me bring back the circus since you already messing with a clown, look I’m sorry for the neglect, and disrespect, no go? guess I’mma chill and just reflect

#LEXICONKILLER

A.D.H.ME

Sitting here reciting barz looking at cars, checking the price of acoustic guitars, looking at the moon staring at the stars thinking about this world that was supposed to be ours

Oh word the guitars not even that much and I want a car with a dual clutch, the moon looks close enough to touch, I wonder if you’re happy with such and such

I could start a rock band and call it child support at least that way they wouldn’t have to impute my income when I go to court, drink rose’ and not port build a house not rent a fort, drive a coupe’ of some sort stargaze from a resort not somewhere as a resort, this is how the lexicon killer was birthed, so when you have a bad day just remember it could be worse

#LEXICONKILLER

A.D.H.ME

Sitting here reciting barz looking at cars, checking the price of acoustic guitars, looking at the moon staring at the stars thinking about this world that was supposed to be ours

Oh word the guitars not even that much and I want a car with a dual clutch, the moon looks close enough to touch, I wonder if you’re happy with such and such

I could start a rock band and call it child support at least that way they wouldn’t have to impute my income when I go to court, drink rose’ and not port build a house not rent a fort, drive a coupe’ of some sort stargaze from a resort not somewhere as a resort, this is how the lexicon killer was birthed, so when you have a bad day just remember it could be worse

#LEXICONKILLER

A.D.H.ME

Sitting here reciting barz looking at cars, checking the price of acoustic guitars, looking at the moon staring at the stars thinking about this world that was supposed to be ours

Oh word the guitars not even that much and I want a car with a dual clutch, the moon looks close enough to touch, I wonder if you’re happy with such and such

I could start a rock band and call it child support at least that way they wouldn’t have to impute my income when I go to court, drink rose’ and not port build a house not rent a fort, drive a coupe’ of some sort stargaze from a resort not somewhere as a resort, this is how the lexicon killer was birthed, so when you have a bad day just remember it could be worse

#LEXICONKILLER

A.D.H.ME

Sitting here reciting barz looking at cars, checking the price of acoustic guitars, looking at the moon staring at the stars thinking about this world that was supposed to be ours

Oh word the guitars not even that much and I want a car with a dual clutch, the moon looks close enough to touch, I wonder if you’re happy with such and such

I could start a rock band and call it child support at least that way they wouldn’t have to impute my income when I go to court, drink rose’ and not port build a house not rent a fort, drive a coupe’ of some sort stargaze from a resort not somewhere as a resort, this is how the lexicon killer was birthed, so when you have a bad day just remember it could be worse

#LEXICONKILLER

SAVING YOU

Any animosity or problems I may have had, I leave them in yesterday where they can do no bad

If I dwell and let them fester, I promise you I’ll be more the joker than a jester

My mind moves very fast, to the point I’ve seen your future in my past, you can’t jump over the fire you have to walk through and to be honest I don’t think it’s in you

Stay on the sidewalk and keep your pass, but just know I do reserve the right to pull out this pen and ether your ass

#LEXICONKILLER

A HUNDO

I know I love her but I’m starting to doubt myself, see she has four kids; the biggest reason why I put the proposal on the shelf

I know I’m ready to be the man she needs me to be, but I’m not sure if I’m ready to have a whole family, that’s a huge responsibility to take on when I only have one, hell I can’t propose now I’m in a custody battle thats not even done

Plus you don’t understand my child’s mama, if she found out I was taking on four kids she would blow like Osama, another reason why I doubt myself is she gets included in everything, even a conversation with myself about buying you a ring

I’m not sure if I could stand the temptation of not trying to right wrongs from my past, and your kids deserve more than to be in a rotating cast, I do love her enough to know she deserves to be happy forever, but I’m not sure if I wont go when I get that call to put the fam back together

TEDDY BEAR 🧸

It’s been a lot of Thanksgiving since You’ve been gone, but this one hurts especially bad because it’s been too long, too long for reconciliation, too long for a phone call anticipation, the worse part about it is I actually changed, you’d be surprised, black love dominates every part of my body, down to my big vein, if you gave me 8 minutes and 28 seconds I could explain, you wouldn’t even have to hear my voice, until it was up to you, your choice, it’s much easier to communicate without text messages or in boxes, those things usually come back up and make for interesting paradoxes, I heard you saw my mans and them and not one question, I had to ask if it look like you were stressed and I heard so guess you still you you want me to tell the truth or you want me to spare your insides  ? because really she look better than that girl that I saw you with outside, so yeah I guess you still you, but enough about me and the things I put you through, how’s my little superhero ? Still dominating on the court ? Still making goals? We made an all sport, well this was kind of long for a letter with no address, anyway Happy Thanksgiving God bless