BRUTALLY HONEST

Only reason why you don’t cheat is because you don’t want to be alone but let’s be honest it’s been some time since this house was a home I know you don’t love me I can feel it when you hug me that’s why I started making my own coffee the things I’ve done you might drug me

I know about all the dudes texting you trying to get you to leave me I went through your Google drive and none of their words could see me I’ve known for about 6 months notice I didn’t say nothing I was hoping that you would be like me and do something

I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m going to leave I’m holding you back from what you deserve is what I believe I’m going to stop trying to take the coward’s way out I know this is still going to break your heart I just didn’t want to see it play out

#LEXICONKILLER

BRUTALLY HONEST

Only reason why you don’t cheat is because you don’t want to be alone but let’s be honest it’s been some time since this house was a home I know you don’t love me I can feel it when you hug me that’s why I started making my own coffee the things I’ve done you might drug me

I know about all the dudes texting you trying to get you to leave me I went through your Google drive and none of their words could see me I’ve known for about 6 months notice I didn’t say nothing I was hoping that you would be like me and do something

I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m going to leave I’m holding you back from what you deserve is what I believe I’m going to stop trying to take the coward’s way out I know this is still going to break your heart I just didn’t want to see it play out

#LEXICONKILLER

BRUTALLY HONEST

Only reason why you don’t cheat is because you don’t want to be alone but let’s be honest it’s been some time since this house was a home I know you don’t love me I can feel it when you hug me that’s why I started making my own coffee the things I’ve done you might drug me

I know about all the dudes texting you trying to get you to leave me I went through your Google drive and none of their words could see me I’ve known for about 6 months notice I didn’t say nothing I was hoping that you would be like me and do something

I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m going to leave I’m holding you back from what you deserve is what I believe I’m going to stop trying to take the coward’s way out I know this is still going to break your heart I just didn’t want to see it play out

#LEXICONKILLER

BRUTALLY HONEST

Only reason why you don’t cheat is because you don’t want to be alone but let’s be honest it’s been some time since this house was a home I know you don’t love me I can feel it when you hug me that’s why I started making my own coffee the things I’ve done you might try to off me

I know about all the dudes texting you trying to get you to leave me I went through your Google drive and none of their words could see me I’ve known for about 6 months notice I didn’t say nothing I was hoping that you would be like me and finally do something

I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m going to leave I’m holding you back from what you deserve is what I believe I’m going to stop trying to take the coward’s way out I know this is still going to break your heart I just didn’t want to be around to see that part #LEXICONKILLER

BRUTALLY HONEST

Only reason why you don’t cheat is because you don’t want to be alone but let’s be honest it’s been some time since this house was a home I know you don’t love me I can feel it when you hug me that’s why I started making my own coffee the things I’ve done you might drug me

I know about all the dudes texting you trying to get you to leave me I went through your Google drive and none of their words could see me I’ve known for about 6 months notice I didn’t say nothing I was hoping that you would be like me and do something

I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m going to leave I’m holding you back from what you deserve is what I believe I’m going to stop trying to take the coward’s way out I know this is still going to break your heart I just didn’t want to see it play out

#LEXICONKILLER

EMOTIONAL SUICIDE 💔

This rainy weather has me wondering what to do, I swear I’m out here talking like it’s just me and you

My muse is my monster that I created from nights I should have just masturbated

Nights I could have just come home lonely, but it was damn near impossible with all these females on me

I gave in to temptation like a sodomite, two eights make a sixteen and they down to dyke

Instances like that tipped the scale, or when I would be verbally abusive coming home ripped as hell

You can go ahead and leave this is not an abduction, have you ever seen someone’s eyes turn to hate from seduction ?

Those tears turned into laughter and the more she pulled away the more I ran after but I was never fast enough to recapture

The closest I’ve come is love letters and apologies, oh and Poems from The Trap Vol. 1 the anthology

CEE NOVA DICHOTOMY

Hi my name is Nova; I’m addicted to everything, red bones, money phones, indica and sleeping alone

Hi my name is Nova; I’m addicted to everything, attention whore, jewelery store, couple cars, we need more

Hi my name in Nova I’m addicted to everything, fresh out Riverside regional ready to let my nuts hang, gotta a girl that say she love me and imma try my best, but I’m addicted to double D’s on every girls chest

Hi my name is Nova a certified problem, I get this guy into all kind of conundrums sit back and see if he can solve em

Hi my name is Cee; I’m addicted to everything my family, my son, sativa, the peace it bring

Hi my name is Cee; I’m addicted to everything mental health, mental wealth and memories on a shelf

Hi my name is Cee, and I gotta fix everything grandiose asshole did, I had to use all of his money to fight to see our kid, Hi my name is Cee, I’m a proud black father, I refuse to raise another Nova I’m shooting for a road scholar, a Titan of industry or artist like me, I will bend reality to manifest his destiny

Hi my name is Cee I’m a reformed womanizer, I had to go through hell to become a black love realiser, Hi my name is Cee and I played with a lot of hearts, it’s one in particular I have to fix that I tore apart, Hi my name is Cee I’m on a mission for redemption I came from the bottom bear witness to my ascension

NOVAS ROOM

Cups full of Patron I need to sober up and go home I been in this bar for too long every drink getting too strong I got this one number in my phone that I really wanna call up but lately I been really fukin up and word is she happy with this new guy
but I been drinking so much that I’mma hit her up like fuk that dude he can’t compete with the past I know you miss the times we had I SAID fuk that dude he’s definitely not me and since you picked up I feel like my chances 50/50

I’m just saying I thought you ain’t like pretty dudes tell me I’m lying and I’ll skip straight to the interlude I’m just saying I didn’t think that was your type and I’mma roast him only if you make me aight

Cups of that goose got me on the loose see her whole crew ask about you they said you had something to do what you doing that’s so important lemme find out pretty boy got you out courtin

I’m so ripped that I’mma call you anyway and say fuk that dude he can’t compete with the past I know you miss the times we had I SAID fuk that dude he’s definitely not me and since you picked up I feel like my chances 50/50

I’m just saying I thought you ain’t like pretty dudes tell me I’m lying and I’ll skip straight to the interlude I’m just saying I didn’t think that was your type and I’mma roast him only if you make me aight

I think I’m addicted to that new to hear the new sound and what the face look like too I know it sound like a dirt bag and I would agree with you we threw a party yeah a kickback broads came over but they already left yeah we threw a kickback talk to me I need you in my life I need you to make things right I had some women that were living off me seeing as how you know one I won’t mention the three

too many drinks have been given to me after a while babe they all sound the same I’m sorry I made you a player in this game I’ve had sex five times this week if you want I’ll explain having a hard time readjusting to the game they wanna go like rabbits it’s insane
it’s Friday night I called talking crazy I’m lucky you answered you can be lazy I’ll do all the work I’m trying to get under that shirt oh I’m sorry I’m tryna see if you down to choose pretty boy should know the rules
Oh Word you not gonna come word guess I’mma Netflix and reflect

A LOVERS REMORSE

It’s been a long week I really don’t feel the need to have to speak but you know what I’m going through and I know your situation too I just wanna get lost in your soul like we use to do a deep tissue massage maybe smoke one or two then we would do what grown folks do If it was so bad why do thoughts of you bring me so much peace & if it’s so wrong than why can’t I let you go & be free I can’t because I belong to you & you were made for me I told you I was coming back I just needed to find the man in me so I could be the man you needed I just thought you knew everything else you superseded so when I heard you were getting married I couldn’t believe it Yet here we are with a million memories & miles apart & on top of that I have to deal with someone else stealing your heart I knew you first & nurtured your dreams now its turned into a nightmare as it seems I want more than just your body I want you to be my sensei & I’ll be your karate I know the big days coming up & you look beautiful in that dress but sometimes people have buyers remorse when they say yes