HOME WORK

I study women and you’re another chapter in the book Y’all pretty much the same with different nuances at a closer look

Attention to detail tells me everything I need to know I haven’t seen the crazy yet but it’s there this I know

Facial expressions give it all away you tremble your top lip and stutter when you have a rough day

You challenge me when you want me to take things seriously and you act coy when you want a DNA delivery I believe if I left you would invoke misery and make my future worse than my history

#LEXICONKILLER

A HUNDO

I know I love her but I’m starting to doubt myself, see she has four kids; the biggest reason why I put the proposal on the shelf

I know I’m ready to be the man she needs me to be, but I’m not sure if I’m ready to have a whole family, that’s a huge responsibility to take on when I only have one, hell I can’t propose now I’m in a custody battle thats not even done

Plus you don’t understand my child’s mama, if she found out I was taking on four kids she would blow like Osama, another reason why I doubt myself is she gets included in everything, even a conversation with myself about buying you a ring

I’m not sure if I could stand the temptation of not trying to right wrongs from my past, and your kids deserve more than to be in a rotating cast, I do love her enough to know she deserves to be happy forever, but I’m not sure if I wont go when I get that call to put the fam back together

EMOTIONAL SUICIDE 💔

This rainy weather has me wondering what to do, I swear I’m out here talking like it’s just me and you

My muse is my monster that I created from nights I should have just masturbated

Nights I could have just come home lonely, but it was damn near impossible with all these females on me

I gave in to temptation like a sodomite, two eights make a sixteen and they down to dyke

Instances like that tipped the scale, or when I would be verbally abusive coming home ripped as hell

You can go ahead and leave this is not an abduction, have you ever seen someone’s eyes turn to hate from seduction ?

Those tears turned into laughter and the more she pulled away the more I ran after but I was never fast enough to recapture

The closest I’ve come is love letters and apologies, oh and Poems from The Trap Vol. 1 the anthology

CEE NOVA DICHOTOMY

Hi my name is Nova; I’m addicted to everything, red bones, money phones, indica and sleeping alone

Hi my name is Nova; I’m addicted to everything, attention whore, jewelery store, couple cars, we need more

Hi my name in Nova I’m addicted to everything, fresh out Riverside regional ready to let my nuts hang, gotta a girl that say she love me and imma try my best, but I’m addicted to double D’s on every girls chest

Hi my name is Nova a certified problem, I get this guy into all kind of conundrums sit back and see if he can solve em

Hi my name is Cee; I’m addicted to everything my family, my son, sativa, the peace it bring

Hi my name is Cee; I’m addicted to everything mental health, mental wealth and memories on a shelf

Hi my name is Cee, and I gotta fix everything grandiose asshole did, I had to use all of his money to fight to see our kid, Hi my name is Cee, I’m a proud black father, I refuse to raise another Nova I’m shooting for a road scholar, a Titan of industry or artist like me, I will bend reality to manifest his destiny

Hi my name is Cee I’m a reformed womanizer, I had to go through hell to become a black love realiser, Hi my name is Cee and I played with a lot of hearts, it’s one in particular I have to fix that I tore apart, Hi my name is Cee I’m on a mission for redemption I came from the bottom bear witness to my ascension

VIRGINIA VENOM

She was born in a small town that she couldn’t wait to get from around

Every man she ever met left her with regrets and she left them with memories they could never forget

Well educated and her family expected the best but she had to find something else to quench the fire in her chest

I love you was the spell that unlocked her inner fears the only time she felt human is when she shed tears

Pain equalled love in her warped universe she never truly believed that a man could put her first

It hurts so good everytime she was proven right she never stayed untill the morning she left with the night

A dream started a sequence of events in that dream she saw a man that made her want to repent

To her surprise he really existed she had to get him she persisted

Victory would be hers no matter what the cost she didn’t realize by chasing him she would be lost

Something she could love that came from her was the ultimate goal neither of them had any idea of the things that were to unfold

A conversation over dinner with the guise of it being a friend he told her if it was him it would definitely end

From that moment she felt he would never accept who she truly was and he had to be destroyed just because

Unbenounced to him he was sleeping with the enemy but now she had something to love he thought would be a remedy

Selfish with her love she snatched it back fast every kind word she ever said was left in the past

The three they were turned into two the only words spoken were fuk you

Virginia Venom left his heart compromised if you ever met her this would come as no surprise

SUNDAY MORNING GLOW

The universe moves to a rhythm the Earth to a beat

That’s why I look so cool when I move my feet

That’s why all super magnificent comes out my mouth when I speak

I can feel the energy when I come in the room

If that energy is bad I leave before my glow gets consumed

The best part is I know that the same exist in you

The only thing I don’t know is why you can’t see it too

COULD A SHOULD A WOULD A

The past is the past let that shit die, it is what it is stop asking why, for every great day it has to be an antithesis, for you not to believe in that is just ridiculous, things don’t always work out some plans are made to fail, if everybody got into heaven it wouldn’t be a need for a hell, people die everyday from stray rounds, and some people cry out for help and we turn away pretending not to hear the sound, the world we live in is a messed up place, case in point the good people usually finish last in the race, we can smile and continue to pretend, or we can free our minds become something else and transcend

NOVAS ROOM

Cups full of Patron I need to sober up and go home I been in this bar for too long every drink getting too strong I got this one number in my phone that I really wanna call up but lately I been really fukin up and word is she happy with this new guy
but I been drinking so much that I’mma hit her up like fuk that dude he can’t compete with the past I know you miss the times we had I SAID fuk that dude he’s definitely not me and since you picked up I feel like my chances 50/50

I’m just saying I thought you ain’t like pretty dudes tell me I’m lying and I’ll skip straight to the interlude I’m just saying I didn’t think that was your type and I’mma roast him only if you make me aight

Cups of that goose got me on the loose see her whole crew ask about you they said you had something to do what you doing that’s so important lemme find out pretty boy got you out courtin

I’m so ripped that I’mma call you anyway and say fuk that dude he can’t compete with the past I know you miss the times we had I SAID fuk that dude he’s definitely not me and since you picked up I feel like my chances 50/50

I think I’m addicted to that new to hear the new sound and what the face look like too I know it sound like a dirt bag and I would agree with you we threw a party yeah a kickback broads came over but they already left yeah we threw a kickback talk to me I need you in my life I need you to make things right I had some women that were living off me seeing as how you know one I won’t mention the three

too many drinks have been given to me after a while babe they all sound the same I’m sorry I made you a player in this game I’ve had sex five times this week if you want I’ll explain having a hard time readjusting to the game they wanna go like rabbits it’s insane
it’s Friday night I called talking crazy I’m lucky you answered you can be lazy I’ll do all the work I’m trying to get under that shirt oh I’m sorry I’m tryna see if you down to choose pretty boy should know the rules
Oh Word you not gonna come word guess I’mma Netflix and reflect