BRUTALLY HONEST

Only reason why you don’t cheat is because you don’t want to be alone but let’s be honest it’s been some time since this house was a home I know you don’t love me I can feel it when you hug me that’s why I started making my own coffee the things I’ve done you might drug me

I know about all the dudes texting you trying to get you to leave me I went through your Google drive and none of their words could see me I’ve known for about 6 months notice I didn’t say nothing I was hoping that you would be like me and do something

I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m going to leave I’m holding you back from what you deserve is what I believe I’m going to stop trying to take the coward’s way out I know this is still going to break your heart I just didn’t want to see it play out

#LEXICONKILLER

BRUTALLY HONEST

Only reason why you don’t cheat is because you don’t want to be alone but let’s be honest it’s been some time since this house was a home I know you don’t love me I can feel it when you hug me that’s why I started making my own coffee the things I’ve done you might drug me

I know about all the dudes texting you trying to get you to leave me I went through your Google drive and none of their words could see me I’ve known for about 6 months notice I didn’t say nothing I was hoping that you would be like me and do something

I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m going to leave I’m holding you back from what you deserve is what I believe I’m going to stop trying to take the coward’s way out I know this is still going to break your heart I just didn’t want to see it play out

#LEXICONKILLER

BRUTALLY HONEST

Only reason why you don’t cheat is because you don’t want to be alone but let’s be honest it’s been some time since this house was a home I know you don’t love me I can feel it when you hug me that’s why I started making my own coffee the things I’ve done you might try to off me

I know about all the dudes texting you trying to get you to leave me I went through your Google drive and none of their words could see me I’ve known for about 6 months notice I didn’t say nothing I was hoping that you would be like me and finally do something

I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m going to leave I’m holding you back from what you deserve is what I believe I’m going to stop trying to take the coward’s way out I know this is still going to break your heart I just didn’t want to be around to see that part #LEXICONKILLER

BRUTALLY HONEST

Only reason why you don’t cheat is because you don’t want to be alone but let’s be honest it’s been some time since this house was a home I know you don’t love me I can feel it when you hug me that’s why I started making my own coffee the things I’ve done you might drug me

I know about all the dudes texting you trying to get you to leave me I went through your Google drive and none of their words could see me I’ve known for about 6 months notice I didn’t say nothing I was hoping that you would be like me and do something

I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m going to leave I’m holding you back from what you deserve is what I believe I’m going to stop trying to take the coward’s way out I know this is still going to break your heart I just didn’t want to see it play out

#LEXICONKILLER

ANOTHER DAY AT THE OFFICE

The devil wears Prada and so do I, it’s very rare that you see either one of us cry, that little red strip is the thin line, I know he’s not going to let you cross his so I can’t let you cross mine

Double souls are my favorite kind, they give me a different perspective because I’m 6′ 4″ when I wear mine, funny enough they look like ninja boots for a suit, but the leather insoles and flat bottoms keep me steady when I shoot hoops or drive coups

Or whatever your vice, they look like ninja boots for some reason I thought I should say that twice, I would be wild enough to wear some ninja boots on a heist

#LEXICONKILLER

100 JANTS (PTSD)

I have to move through life like I have a hundred bricks on me at all times, I can’t drift and drive I have to stay  between the lines, I have to remember that I’m always going to be the aggressor even in situations where I had to apply no pressure, 6′ 2″ 220 bald head black male with a beard, I’m the usual suspect and I just got here, my tattoos automatically mean thug Life, but if you look closer all you’ll see is my child and my future wife, yes I do feel like I need a gun because I’m going to get shot in the back if I run, give me the same dignity that you give Tommie the dog, you can’t be mad at me because my mind is digital and you stuck on analog, I hold doors and take my elders groceries in the house, I just want you to know I’m tired of being emasculated and why I might want to punch you in the mouth

#LEXICONKILLER

HOME WORK

I study women and you’re another chapter in the book Y’all pretty much the same with different nuances at a closer look

Attention to detail tells me everything I need to know I haven’t seen the crazy yet but it’s there this I know

Facial expressions give it all away you tremble your top lip and stutter when you have a rough day

You challenge me when you want me to take things seriously and you act coy when you want a DNA delivery I believe if I left you would invoke misery and make my future worse than my history

#LEXICONKILLER

EMOTIONAL SUICIDE πŸ’”

This rainy weather has me wondering what to do, I swear I’m out here talking like it’s just me and you

My muse is my monster that I created from nights I should have just masturbated

Nights I could have just come home lonely, but it was damn near impossible with all these females on me

I gave in to temptation like a sodomite, two eights make a sixteen and they down to dyke

Instances like that tipped the scale, or when I would be verbally abusive coming home ripped as hell

You can go ahead and leave this is not an abduction, have you ever seen someone’s eyes turn to hate from seduction ?

Those tears turned into laughter and the more she pulled away the more I ran after but I was never fast enough to recapture

The closest I’ve come is love letters and apologies, oh and Poems from The Trap Vol. 1 the anthology

VIRGINIA IS FOR LOVERS

Thank you for taking time out of your day to read my thoughts ✍🏾✍🏾✍🏾

DRUGZ..  how many of us need them??  DRUGZ… How many of us use them?? .. DRUGZ… How many of us need them?? Let’s be real

Everybody has a vice, some are accepted and some make people look twice, some roll up to forget and be at ease, some pop pills and blame it on their knees, one time I talked to a dude that huffed freon, I just listened as he told me about the high he on

Some break out the skis and go on holiday, not Christmas but Doc they act erratic in a way, others travel with a tourniquet and have to tie off to get their blast, if they aspirate this will be their last

Some people argue whether or not this one should qualify, but it has to be a drug if you keep drinking after your first D.U.I, you can chalk it up as just having too much fun, but it has to be a drug at least when you catch your second one, you figured it out so now you only drink at home, only problem is you drove everyone away so now you’re all alone

Not to leave anyone out we got the hardest working on the list, sell their daughters laptop for ten minutes worth of bliss, can fix the engine on everything from a 72 Impala to a Rolls-Royce wraith, swear on his mama grave and he was with her yesterday, come on baby I got you when my check come on payday, needless to say a week later he got the beats by Dre

DRUGZ..  how many of us need them??  DRUGZ… How many of us use them?? .. DRUGZ… How many of us need them?? Let’s be real