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100 JANTS (PTSD)

I have to move through life like I have a hundred bricks on me at all times, I can’t drift and drive I have to stay  between the lines, I have to remember that I’m always going to be the aggressor even in situations where I had to apply no pressure, 6′ 2″ 220 bald head black male with a beard, I’m the usual suspect and I just got here, my tattoos automatically mean thug Life, but if you look closer all you’ll see is my child and my future wife, yes I do feel like I need a gun because I’m going to get shot in the back if I run, give me the same dignity that you give Tommie the dog, you can’t be mad at me because my mind is digital and you stuck on analog, I hold doors and take my elders groceries in the house, I just want you to know I’m tired of being emasculated and why I might want to punch you in the mouth

#LEXICONKILLER

DEVIL IN THE DETAILS

If I pull out this Canon it’s not an ad lib, it’s 223’s in rapid succession going through your crib, but it’s in the corner and I’m trying to keep it dusty, I can dump a buck and reload so fast it make me musty, I prefer zero dark thirty to maintain the drop, but I’m not opposed to a concert in the middle of the day; let’s rock, you keep shooting at me with a silencer and don’t think that I hear it, you going to make me bring the second line and release your spirit, I’m trying my best not to embarrass my mama, so maybe I’ll just outsource some help from the Bahamas, oh yeah WhatsApp Coyote order a esse, keep playing connect four and I’mma press play

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NOVA DEX

I pick up this pen and turn into a serial killer again, who’s gonna catch it the hate or something from within, life really deserves it for these conundrums I face, but you good cuz at least I don’t have any open case, I could go after the Ex’s that used to sex me and let go of some of these frustrations that still vex me, but I’m a changed man now so I let bygones be bygones, I try my best to meditate and press on and bless on, or I could go at the judicial, but I made that mistake one time before and they definitely hold it against you.. and just for the record I don’t want any issue, so I guess it’s Nova Dex versus one of his demons, that means I’m about to write something that you won’t believe that I was seeing, but trust me it’s just a day in the life of an  extraordinary human being

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THE STOP: LIFE & TIMES OF YA BOY (PART 2)

So I’m in the backseat handcuffs on my wrist, I can still feel em everytime I think about this

At this point I’m getting compliments about my choice of firearm and how it could defeat the armor they had on, I’m like yeah unfortunately that’s gonna be about the eighth one gone, everytime this happen y’all take  one bruh, so I’m guessing my baby eagle gone huh

I just got out from my second one, three months later I catch my third, I’m still on probation for the second one; yeah this is absurd, on to booking we go, if they give me a bond it’ll be high because of my other case, lucky for me I got enough in my pocket to get me, fuk face

Hear the clink in the morning then the bright lights, I’m about to go in front of the monitor and roll the dice, come on hard six not trying to take a cold shower for lice, got a lecture then he put twenty on my head, that’s cool I got over two in property like I previously said

First phonecall I know this number by heart, it’s a dub I got the ten in property go ahead and make the paperwork start, oh and call to see if you can catch my car, they were being difficult said they were taking it out far

Finally twelve hours later I’m back in control, returning missed calls telling a copy of a story I already told, Khalid before Khalid another one, same folks same jurisdiction; this should be fun

MAN CHILD

Went to see my boy I haven’t seen in awhile, incarcerated scar face now a man child, facing trial from one mistake made as a juvenile

What’s that conversation like? Sad and cerebral a different part of life, it’s definitely a different world books still your best friend, but you have to turn your spidey sense up to a 10, after you come off your 24-hour lock just play it cool and see where you fit in at in the box

Find peace in yourself before you get off the bluebird, it’s going to be a lot of he said she said but don’t run with the heard, this is where you better yourself try and read every book on the shelf no matter the topic; read books until your eyes roll in the back of your head and say stop it

Everything that is understood doesn’t have to be said and another thing don’t let anyone sit on your bed, we deal with where we are and not where we wish we could be, tighten up that face you’re going to be all right because you’ve got me

MONSTERS OF CIRCUMSTANCE

This was written to go in my second book, but I think the streets need it now. We have to look in the mirror and accept the fact that we played a part.

I pop pills, smoke blunts and drink heavy too, if I do that to me imagine what I’ll do to you, animosity is my comfort zone if it’s between me and you; I’m making it home, roaming the streets looking for the next lick, why should I care? nobody ever gave a shit, pops gone momma can’t afford me, I’m about to catch dude in the Honda Accord B, heard he got stacks all blue faces, cock the pistol tie my shoes laces, I’m a Savage give a fuk about you seeing faces, I’mma let this cannon pop 9 out of ten cases, wait till I get about 3 paces pop, pop, pop, blood in the air I can taste it, I gotta do what I gotta do just face it, if you were I would you trade places? probably not they say I belong in cages, they might be right but I wasn’t born with any Aces ; I got a dick on my Glock so not tonight, I don’t have time to ponder if it’s right, all I know is momma need money for lights

THE WORLD WE LIVE IN

Today is July 6, 2019 and the world we live in is in complete disarray. Real is not real fake is in, petty has replaced common sense along with common decency. We have a crook in the oval office; and not a good one may I add. Everything revolves around social media likes and comments. The world is at a point where doing something “out of the kindness of your heart” has to be documented for a later release. It seems as if love has lost the ongoing battle to vanity. What happened to morals what happened to genuine people? In my opinion social media was a social experiment that can no longer be controlled. From something that was supposed to bring us together to something that drives depression, murders, suicides, etc. I’m not blaming all the world’s problems on social media but I think it fuels a large percentage of them. Think about it we have a president that bullies people on social media via twitter. Some people would commit murder on camera over social media “beef” opposed to getting beat up on camera. Its people literally making fools of themselves to go “viral” people of all races and ethnicities perpetuate stereotypes for a like. Who do those likes come from what value do they add to your life. We’ve become brainwashed by technology. The computers have already taken over, take a look around. The faster the technology comes the more we depend on it and we don’t use the most powerful computer known to mankind which is the human brain. Don’t get me wrong I’m not saying that social media is not a powerful tool, but when used right. I get it if you have a talent to monetize than yes social media is a powerful tool; I don’t know if twerking applies, but if that’s your talent than aye. All I’m saying is please doing let social media define who you are as a person. What’s the point in living on the internet like The Sims when people know you in real life, who you fooling your followers or yourself? It’s so much more to life than a like. The ironic part` is that social media has replaced social skills, from how to talk to a woman to how to talk to a man to how to conduct an intelligent conversation. I’m not bashing social media but at the same time this is not the end all be all.