Tag: #INTROSPECTIVE

100 JANTS (PTSD)

I have to move through life like I have a hundred bricks on me at all times, I can’t drift and drive I have to stay  between the lines, I have to remember that I’m always going to be the aggressor even in situations where I had to apply no pressure, 6′ 2″ 220 bald head black male with a beard, I’m the usual suspect and I just got here, my tattoos automatically mean thug Life, but if you look closer all you’ll see is my child and my future wife, yes I do feel like I need a gun because I’m going to get shot in the back if I run, give me the same dignity that you give Tommie the dog, you can’t be mad at me because my mind is digital and you stuck on analog, I hold doors and take my elders groceries in the house, I just want you to know I’m tired of being emasculated and why I might want to punch you in the mouth

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SAVING YOU

Any animosity or problems I may have had, I leave them in yesterday where they can do no bad

If I dwell and let them fester, I promise you I’ll be more the joker than a jester

My mind moves very fast, to the point I’ve seen your future in my past, you can’t jump over the fire you have to walk through and to be honest I don’t think it’s in you

Stay on the sidewalk and keep your pass, but just know I do reserve the right to pull out this pen and ether your ass

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96 PAC

For one you can’t buy me, for two you scared to try me, so three stay from round me, if I waste a charge on you my homies gonna clown me

You a grimey pussy and I am trying to push you, soon as you build up some testicular fortitude I’mma douche you

I hate when people misunderstand evolution as being weak, you wake up with a shitbag I’m pretty sure you’ll be more careful as to what you speak

All I’m saying is I’m not tolerating noooo disrespect, I only do one-arm push-ups because imma try to smack your head off your neck, I’m aiming for the cervical spine seven vertebrae, hopefully I won’t have to say it no more right go left when I have to repeat what I say

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ABSTRACT ART

We act like we gang gang but that’s just a facade usually perpetrated when a camera is on a tripod, to be completely transparent I’ll only ride for a few, so chances are I wouldn’t step into the gray area with you, the closets are walk in my thriller jacket in the back, I’m cordial with the skeletons which allow me to talk like that, when I stand up in church everybody turns into a chicken, what he about to say am I going to have to raise my tithe giving, I’ve seen people get leaned on with massive threats, but it seems like the most fearful is a truth that won’t forget

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UNBIASED ABUSE

You ever had that one that you can’t get over, the more they beat you up the more you try to get closer, it’s like they have a Svengali hold over your very soul, you’re dealing with a master of strings, they have long evolved from the pinky ring

You make a mistake it’s a declaration of war, they make a mistake you getting up off the floor, I didn’t  think you majored in indentured servitude, I thought you were on some Elroy Jetson shit trying to get to the moon, I don’t care what color it is don’t let that black hole stop you, I’m not a rocket scientist but I know love’s not supposed to sock you, but ultimately it is your life to live, I just hope you don’t lose it just to find out somebody had fux to give

#LEXICONKILLER

UNBIASED ABUSE

You ever had that one that you can’t get over, the more they beat you up the more you try to get closer, it’s like they have a Svengali hold over your very soul, you’re dealing with a master of strings, they have long evolved from the pinky ring

You make a mistake it’s a declaration of war, they make a mistake you getting up off the floor, I didn’t  think you majored in indentured servitude, I thought you were on some Elroy Jetson shit trying to get to the moon, I don’t care what color it is don’t let that black hole stop you, I’m not a rocket scientist but I know love’s not supposed to sock you, but ultimately it is your life to live, I just hope you don’t lose it just to find out somebody had fux to give

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4.83%

When I met you I had a ace showing trying to flip a queen, the deck was stacked already but to me yet to be seen, it took me awhile to realize who was really dealing, I got a icebox no room for feelings, I split the cards doubled down and tried to play two hands, the look on your face should have told me that I really didn’t understand, I put everything on the line based on one card flip, I mean I bet the farm it was going to be glory or hardship, I thought the bluff was working we were at a two-year stalemate, unbenounced to me she knew the flip hoping I would cooperate, NOPE… all nuts no brain, when she flipped that card I was not prepared for what came, my baby took me clean out the door, that card hit the table like she been training with Thor, I immediately started doing math, I just lost everything and still owe half

CONGRATULATIONS super magnificent spit game you did it again, because of you we lost our girl our future and MY best friend..

#LEXICONKILLER

4.83%

When I met you I had a ace showing trying to flip a queen, the deck was stacked already but to me yet to be seen, it took me awhile to realize who was really dealing, I got a icebox no room for feelings, I split the cards doubled down and tried to play two hands, the look on your face should have told me that I really didn’t understand, I put everything on the line based on one card flip, I mean I bet the farm it was going to be glory or hardship, I thought the bluff was working we were at a two-year stalemate, unbenounced to me she knew the flip hoping I would cooperate, NOPE… all nuts no brain, when she flipped that card I was not prepared for what came, my baby took me clean out the door, that card hit the table like she been training with Thor, I immediately started doing math, I just lost everything and still owe half

CONGRATULATIONS super magnificent spit game you did it again, because of you we lost our girl our future and MY best friend..

#LEXICONKILLER

4.83%

When I met you I had a ace showing trying to flip a queen, the deck was stacked already but to me yet to be seen, it took me awhile to realize who was really dealing, I got a icebox no room for feelings, I split the cards doubled down and tried to play two hands, the look on your face should have told me that I really didn’t understand, I put everything on the line based on one card flip, I mean I bet the farm it was going to be glory or hardship, I thought the bluff was working we were at a two-year stalemate, unbenounced to me she knew the flip hoping I would cooperate, NOPE… all nuts no brain, when she flipped that card I was not prepared for what came, my baby took me clean out the door, that card hit the table like she been training with Thor, I immediately started doing math, I just lost everything and still owe half

CONGRATULATIONS super magnificent spit game you did it again, because of you we lost our girl our future and MY best friend..

#LEXICONKILLER