Let it lone time to turn the page go to the hobby store and buy you some sage, let the pain dissipate, in the fuk shit you don’t have to participate, take that energy and transform it into a tangible entity, the universe will place everything at your feet you don’t have to search for chemistry, it’s easy to lose yourself replaying prior events when you do that you welcome memories of nonsense, I’m not just speaking from an outside view, believe it or not I’ve played the fool a time or two, I’m just trying to give you the cheat code for everything I’ve been through, remember I’ve survived a terrorist and her insurgent crew
Tag: #DIVORCE
IGNORANCE IS BLISS
Crime pays just not on the bottom floor you have to go past the Plug the CEO makes way more, privatized jails dispensaries and Payday loans on every block; while your check gets garnished before you can even grocery shop, I can’t do certain things to feed my family, but you do those exact things? to me that’s the definition of insanity, everyday black men are being radicalized you’re turning us into super predators as we were once categorized, you made black women not need us and become independent, whole time I can’t get a job!! I owe child support so my license is suspended, her earning potential is way higher than mine unless I pull out the plow and hit the streets, but as we all know instant gratification is usually bitter sweet, stuck between a rock and a hard place a whammy and a ace, then I see myself in the mirror face to face
You’re so strong that they systemically try to destroy you, just vibe at the right frequency and the universe will employ you, vibe so high that the universe spoils you, and once you conquer this life to the next it will deploy you
FIX ME
How can you fix me if I don’t even know what’s wrong with me myself and I’m not going to the doctor I can handle my own mental health
Every time I break pattern you think it’s because I have something to hide when in actuality I had a lot on my mind and I just needed to ride free my mind focus inside
Apparently you’re never going to forget or forgive about the past, therefore I exercise my right to terminate my contract and leave this cast, now you can sleep and play those games on your phone the same way you made me want to be which is alone, arrivederci, adios, I’m leaving this dictatorship situation, you doing all that snooping and didn’t see your friends been waiting on my emancipation
BALL & CHAIN
I love her because she doesn’t except anything but the best from me if she feels like I’m not trying she won’t be complacent with less from me and she doesn’t need me monetarily
From the outside it looks like she’s always riding my back but most times I’m procrastinating and she loves me enough not to go for that
Only the two of us know everything that really transpires, both of us hurt each other pull out cans and fan the fires, sometimes I have too much fun and need a P.O. sometimes I need someone to tell me places not to go, she has a good heart and a nerd like Steve Urkel, luckily she has me to pluck squares out of her circle
Pillow talk and the dreams we share in common fuel the fire our twin flames burn in our soul, we’re on some other other shit which makes us love bold, we say things we don’t mean just to be the one upper, things that make me order out and not eat her supper, everybody loves both of us so they try and intervene, but we’re trying something new conflict resolution over Wintergreen, it’s been working please continue to pray for us, we got this just please stay out the way of us
HE SAID YES
Nothing corrupts like power, that’s why most times before I go home I have to take a shower, I only do what I do because I can and it has nothing to do with the fact I’m a man, she has a significant other and she pays every bill; again that’s power to allow her to come and go at will, we both know it’s wrong and from time to time we joke about it, that’s when things get serious and we smoke up out it, in my defense you proposed to me, I didn’t want to embarrass you I only promise to try to be what you wanted me to be; and now you got me breaking guy code trying to get you to see, it’s not you or me it’s ease and access intervening in our destiny, when I fall off the horse I hop right back on it, but remember for this marriage you were the only proponent
UNDERTONE
I have an affinity for red women that harbor aggression, I find them to be teachers of life’s lessons, forks in the road at certain intersections, a road map of no certain direction a constant source of mental erections, forget the heart on your sleeve you need a blood pressure monitor I think your blood is boiling because you’re red as a thermometer, expressions don’t get held well, in my mind I can literally hear you telling me to go to hell, I can read your face that’s why I know the right response, give me a second and I’ll say something that came out the Renaissance, the path of least resistance, the road I travel with persistence, I’m trying to save you so you can save us, come tell me your desires and hush that fuss, I have an affinity for red women that harbor aggression, you don’t have to ask consider this my confession
VIRGINIA VENOM
She was born in a small town that she couldn’t wait to get from around
Every man she ever met left her with regrets and she left them with memories they could never forget
Well educated and her family expected the best but she had to find something else to quench the fire in her chest
I love you was the spell that unlocked her inner fears the only time she felt human is when she shed tears
Pain equalled love in her warped universe she never truly believed that a man could put her first
It hurts so good everytime she was proven right she never stayed untill the morning she left with the night
A dream started a sequence of events in that dream she saw a man that made her want to repent
To her surprise he really existed she had to get him she persisted
Victory would be hers no matter what the cost she didn’t realize by chasing him she would be lost
Something she could love that came from her was the ultimate goal neither of them had any idea of the things that were to unfold
A conversation over dinner with the guise of it being a friend he told her if it was him it would definitely end
From that moment she felt he would never accept who she truly was and he had to be destroyed just because
Unbenounced to him he was sleeping with the enemy but now she had something to love he thought would be a remedy
Selfish with her love she snatched it back fast every kind word she ever said was left in the past
The three they were turned into two the only words spoken were fuk you
Virginia Venom left his heart compromised if you ever met her this would come as no surprise
A DOCTOR A LAWYER OR SUM
You want me to fix you but I’ll never be enough, I tell you I love you and try to call your bluff, you’re not chasing me you’re chasing a feeling, I live on the edge of tomorrow is the thing that you find appealing but you’re not aware of all the demons that I’m concealing and all the things that’s going to take time for revealing, you’ve never seen when the guns come out or know about kick door when the funds run out, all you have ever seen is what I let you see, I’ve never introduced you to the everything went left me, only reason why I’m keeping it this real is because I know I can’t make decisions based on how I feel, if it was up to me another place another time I know I would definitely do whatever it took to make you mine, but that ain’t this and that ain’t it, I do love you, but I ain’t shit
FUK ON ME
She said she was tired of men trying to fuk on her!! like she’s supposed to be impressed because he can spend a buck on her ??
She likes talking phycology and the phases of the moon; not to mention if you did the math she can afford to buy her own spoon and if you’re gonna do right you better do it soon
She said most men were average and it’s only been a few to unlock her mind and see her intellectual savage, she smokes every now and then; she’ll tell you if you ask she doesn’t see a need to pretend
I could hear the pain in her voice during our conversation, she said it worried her because it seemed like sex was the only thing men were chasing, plus a roof and someone with an occupation, what happened to our generations dedication? ? Sheesh
She said that she was so much more than that, and the only thing she needed was her equal to massage her back, she wanted to go to sleep worry free and not have to wonder if her future was worth living to see, all she wants is to activate the wonder twins and not wonder where that other bracelet has been; but time and time again she finds herself getting fuked on by the enemy and not her best friend, she said because you know you’re my best friend right big head? Yeah diddo to what you just said
She said thanks for listening and not trying to fuk on me.. when you find you’re what I’m looking for.. we’re gonna have to approve her and put all our conversations on speakerphone to soothe her
#LEXICONKILLER
5 A.M.
I wanna wake up next to you and have those early morning conversations, you know the ones when we repeat our life’s affirmations, I want to be next to you as you sleep and be lucky enough to breathe your air, I want you to wake up and catch me in a stare, I want to be your dragon Slayer you know I’m right there, I want this moment to always reset and repeat, the only thing I want to change is the sheets, you made me want to land the jet, you made me have memories I could never forget, you turned a boy into a man and for that reason I will always hold your hand
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