It’s been a lot of Thanksgiving since You’ve been gone, but this one hurts especially bad because it’s been too long, too long for reconciliation, too long for a phone call anticipation, the worse part about it is I actually changed, you’d be surprised, black love dominates every part of my body, down to my big vein, if you gave me 8 minutes and 28 seconds I could explain, you wouldn’t even have to hear my voice, until it was up to you, your choice, it’s much easier to communicate without text messages or in boxes, those things usually come back up and make for interesting paradoxes, I heard you saw my mans and them and not one question, I had to ask if it look like you were stressed and I heard so guess you still you you want me to tell the truth or you want me to spare your insidesย ? because really she look better than that girl that I saw you with outside, so yeah I guess you still you, but enough about me and the things I put you through, how’s my little superhero ? Still dominating on the court ? Still making goals? We made an all sport, well this was kind of long for a letter with no address, anyway Happy Thanksgiving God bless
Tag: #Breakuptomakeup
P.F.T.T. V1

YOUR GIRL??
I’ve got action on a Wednesday, when its hot on the block I got somewhere to lay, I guess you might wonder what makes me speak this way..
Your girl (my girl, my girl) talking bout your girl (my girl)
I got so much spit game, the pimps envy me, my kush stronger than everybody else’s trees, I guess you say what can make me play this way..
Your girl (my girl, my girl) talking bout your girl (my girl)
I ain’t spent no money, but I take her on walks in the rain, she said my mind makes her body feel trembles and the explosion is insane, I guess you’d say what type of evil games I play..
You gave me (your girl, your girl) talking about My girl My girl
VIRGINIA IS FOR LOVERS
Thank you for taking time out of your day to read my thoughts โ๐พโ๐พโ๐พ
DRUGZ.. how many of us need them?? DRUGZ… How many of us use them?? .. DRUGZ… How many of us need them?? Let’s be real
Everybody has a vice, some are accepted and some make people look twice, some roll up to forget and be at ease, some pop pills and blame it on their knees, one time I talked to a dude that huffed freon, I just listened as he told me about the high he on
Some break out the skis and go on holiday, not Christmas but Doc they act erratic in a way, others travel with a tourniquet and have to tie off to get their blast, if they aspirate this will be their last
Some people argue whether or not this one should qualify, but it has to be a drug if you keep drinking after your first D.U.I, you can chalk it up as just having too much fun, but it has to be a drug at least when you catch your second one, you figured it out so now you only drink at home, only problem is you drove everyone away so now you’re all alone
Not to leave anyone out we got the hardest working on the list, sell their daughters laptop for ten minutes worth of bliss, can fix the engine on everything from a 72 Impala to a Rolls-Royce wraith, swear on his mama grave and he was with her yesterday, come on baby I got you when my check come on payday, needless to say a week later he got the beats by Dre
DRUGZ.. how many of us need them?? DRUGZ… How many of us use them?? .. DRUGZ… How many of us need them?? Let’s be real
CEE NOVA DICHOTOMY
Hi my name is Nova; I’m addicted to everything, red bones, money phones, indica and sleeping alone
Hi my name is Nova; I’m addicted to everything, attention whore, jewelery store, couple cars, we need more
Hi my name in Nova I’m addicted to everything, fresh out Riverside regional ready to let my nuts hang, gotta a girl that say she love me and imma try my best, but I’m addicted to double D’s on every girls chest
Hi my name is Nova a certified problem, I get this guy into all kind of conundrums sit back and see if he can solve em
Hi my name is Cee; I’m addicted to everything my family, my son, sativa, the peace it bring
Hi my name is Cee; I’m addicted to everything mental health, mental wealth and memories on a shelf
Hi my name is Cee, and I gotta fix everything grandiose asshole did, I had to use all of his money to fight to see our kid, Hi my name is Cee, I’m a proud black father, I refuse to raise another Nova I’m shooting for a road scholar, a Titan of industry or artist like me, I will bend reality to manifest his destiny
Hi my name is Cee I’m a reformed womanizer, I had to go through hell to become a black love realiser, Hi my name is Cee and I played with a lot of hearts, it’s one in particular I have to fix that I tore apart, Hi my name is Cee I’m on a mission for redemption I came from the bottom bear witness to my ascension
LET IT LONE
Let it lone time to turn the page go to the hobby store and buy you some sage, let the pain dissipate, in the fuk shit you don’t have to participate, take that energy and transform it into a tangible entity, the universe will place everything at your feet you don’t have to search for chemistry, it’s easy to lose yourself replaying prior events when you do that you welcome memories of nonsense, I’m not just speaking from an outside view, believe it or not I’ve played the fool a time or two, I’m just trying to give you the cheat code for everything I’ve been through, remember I’ve survived a terrorist and her insurgent crew
IGNORANCE IS BLISS
Crime pays just not on the bottom floor you have to go past the Plug the CEO makes way more, privatized jails dispensaries and Payday loans on every block; while your check gets garnished before you can even grocery shop, I can’t do certain things to feed my family, but you do those exact things? to me that’s the definition of insanity, everyday black men are being radicalized you’re turning us into super predators as we were once categorized, you made black women not need us and become independent, whole time I can’t get a job!! I owe child support so my license is suspended, her earning potential is way higher than mine unless I pull out the plow and hit the streets, but as we all know instant gratification is usually bitter sweet, stuck between a rock and a hard place a whammy and a ace, then I see myself in the mirror face to face
You’re so strong that they systemically try to destroy you, just vibe at the right frequency and the universe will employ you, vibe so high that the universe spoils you, and once you conquer this life to the next it will deploy you
FIX ME
How can you fix me if I don’t even know what’s wrong with me myself and I’m not going to the doctor I can handle my own mental health
Every time I break pattern you think it’s because I have something to hide when in actuality I had a lot on my mind and I just needed to ride free my mind focus inside
Apparently you’re never going to forget or forgive about the past, therefore I exercise my right to terminate my contract and leave this cast, now you can sleep and play those games on your phone the same way you made me want to be which is alone, arrivederci, adios, I’m leaving this dictatorship situation, you doing all that snooping and didn’t see your friends been waiting on my emancipation
BALL & CHAIN
I love her because she doesn’t except anything but the best from me if she feels like I’m not trying she won’t be complacent with less from me and she doesn’t need me monetarily
From the outside it looks like she’s always riding my back but most times I’m procrastinating and she loves me enough not to go for that
Only the two of us know everything that really transpires, both of us hurt each other pull out cans and fan the fires, sometimes I have too much fun and need a P.O. sometimes I need someone to tell me places not to go, she has a good heart and a nerd like Steve Urkel, luckily she has me to pluck squares out of her circle
Pillow talk and the dreams we share in common fuel the fire our twin flames burn in our soul, we’re on some other other shit which makes us love bold, we say things we don’t mean just to be the one upper, things that make me order out and not eat her supper, everybody loves both of us so they try and intervene, but we’re trying something new conflict resolution over Wintergreen, it’s been working please continue to pray for us, we got this just please stay out the way of us
HE SAID YES
Nothing corrupts like power, that’s why most times before I go home I have to take a shower, I only do what I do because I can and it has nothing to do with the fact I’m a man, she has a significant other and she pays every bill; again that’s power to allow her to come and go at will, we both know it’s wrong and from time to time we joke about it, that’s when things get serious and we smoke up out it, in my defense you proposed to me, I didn’t want to embarrass you I only promise to try to be what you wanted me to be; and now you got me breaking guy code trying to get you to see, it’s not you or me it’s ease and access intervening in our destiny, when I fall off the horse I hop right back on it, but remember for this marriage you were the only proponent


