Category: insight

A POET’S PAIN

We are not the same I leak morphine on paper to save you from my reality I question my mortality so you can enjoy yours when I die just make sure the champagne pours I won I succeeded the mission is finally over I got permission to let go and evolve hopefully before that day all my problems will be resolved or at least archived so my son can say my daddy went through that and survived and just like that my next generation can thrive I swear I spit venom think king Cobra even when I die these words will never be over

YEARLY CHECK-UPS

My world stop turning when you died I was in a room with like ten choppers but like a baby I cried
I got myself together and started returning phone calls mad as hell because it was no way to get revenge at all
You closed your eyes with plans for the morning who in the hell would have imagined we would be in mourning
I swear I didn’t want to ring your doorbell when I saw your wife face it was straight hell
Your babies lost their daddy and my selfish ass thinking about myself
I gotta hold it together even though I wish it was me I gotta stay strong in front of the crew because if not you know what the wolves gonna do
I got your wife and I promise I won’t try to hit her she got my real number I’m on it no slumber
I’mma play your role in your babies life I’ll walk em down the isle and approve the dude before there a wife
I ain’t taking ya sons hunting though I’mma try my best to keep them away from guns just like I do my son make sure they don’t be like us to get their loot my job is to keep them out of situations to shoot
Other than that I guess it’s business as usual tell them guys don’t feel a way I just hate funerals plus they still living through my stories and I think about them everyday we really never really die so we can finish this that day

IM STILL A “TANK” 8 YEARS LATER FROM A MULTIPLE SCLEROSIS DIAGNOSIS AND A RAYNAUD’S PHENOMENON (ALWAYS KNEW I WAS SPECIAL LOL) DIAGNOSIS IN 2003 WANNA KNOW WHY 🤔 YEARLY PHYSICALS AND EARLY DETECTION IMMA LET YOU IN ON A SECRET REAL ONES GET SICK TOO

WHY BLACK MEN DON’T CHEAT

I knew we weren’t gonna make it from the go
How much I was gonna fall in love with you is what I didn’t know
I tried to leave a thousand times but when I got to the door memories clouded my mind

Really all our first and I asked myself is it me that changed & am I making things worse

I mean I don’t cheat anymore but I guess that’s not enough I respect our relationship but you make it rough
I do so many about faces I feel like a soldier and you act like you don’t understand I’m a black man with the world on my shoulder
I’m putting my clothes back in the dresser here I stand a dedicated father and man no lesser I’m trying to fight to save my family I want to be a father but not absently

WILL YOU

There she goes my willendorf with that Golden Glow you may be from Venus but you are my Earth I’m not sure if you were created or your mom gave birth either way you are a sight to behold the first time I saw you I almost passed out cold you walked up to me and said you look familiar do I know you? yeah I’m the guy that has a future to show you it’s been years and you still do that same giggle I told you that night I could solve the riddle and when you walk away I still get hypnotized by that wiggle you are my partner and some times the CEO like I said my willendorf there she goes

PHOENIX

You must have seen my new lady, guess that’s why all of a sudden you hate me, I do admit you all do favor, but baby is a way sweeter flavor The energy shift in my chakras from then to now is like clean energy compared to Chernobyl, I thank God everyday I got mobile, and got out the fallout zone, you know the place we used to call home Now I pay attention to the flowers as they bloom, I wake in the morning excited for noon, that’s usually when baby and I meet for lunch, & if we gotta make it quick we just do brunch, I thank you for releasing your hold, I thank you for returning my soul, I thank you for never changing who you really were, if not for that I may not have ever met her If it makes it easier we can blame it on me, but I’m sure your past victims know it was you & not me, who knows & who doesn’t I’m so far beyond caring, that’s the number one reason why my soul I’m bearing I mourned the death of our Union far too long, I think I wrote 100 songs, when I was on 101 the wise man in my head said what are you doing son, for the first time I listened I stop reminiscing, & that allowed me to see her glistening The heavens opened up, it’s karma not luck, even though sometimes I was a jerk, I never intended for your feelings to hurt, really I think I explained too much, just know I let it burn like my Dutch

PIMP OR DIE

I have a stalker that I love, I should be in church but I’m in the club, I think the attention is like a drug to my self confidence, yeah I know that’s supposed to be autonomous, whenever I need to feel love or get lost in the moment, I know you are down because you’re my biggest proponent, I act like I’m not interested to see how far you let me take it, then you turn on the charm and to myself I say might don’t make it, once again I wake up next to my number one fan, it’s been seven years & don’t ask me because I still don’t understand, maybe I don’t have a stalker I’m just seeing competitive spirit, or maybe I’m in a relationship but refuse to endear it

LET ME BE GREAT

Just let me be great, no matter what the outcome no matter what the Fate, I played the rules on both sides of the table, one is dangerous and the other a fable, potential has always been my gift and curse, a double-edged sword I been carrying since birth, I know I’m smarter than a lot of things that I do, but good intentions never fed my child how about you?? It’s a gray area in life and I straddle the fence, no matter how far you are on either side make sure you have money for legal defense, a lot of times it takes more to stay free than what you making, but you can’t show up with a public defender unless you’re faking, in that case conspiracy is easier to prove, I know cats doing years for zero units moved, I’m evolving thinking more like sibling dividends, so we can meet in the Hamptons on random weekends, talk about life what it’s about & how far we’ve come from seeing the doubt, oh word you just got a boat?? I just bought a chopper, not the 47 but the one that fly through traffic like a 96 Impala, life is great we’ve come a long way, kids got businesses and multiple properties to stay, the vision got inspired by some things that transpired that ultimately lit my fire, I realized it’s a marathon & I’m too young to retire I got a name to carry on before I retire

#LEXICONKILLER

IF ONLY

Give me one more chance and I’ll write all my wrongs
Give me one more chance and I’ll write you a song
I’ll tell the world that you are my universe
I’ll tell the stars that you cum first
You can look at my sleeves & see tattoo tears
If you look in my eyes you’ll see a lot of regret and wishing you were here
I been working my way back to you
I’m six two but my soul grew and my common sense too
Y’all come first over everything in existence
It was a revolution and I didn’t miss it
Black love is the most beautiful on Earth and a black woman is the mother of birth
No blessings will come to me until I do right by you and I pray I can fall asleep every night next to you