RELAPSE.. GOT CHA

Wake up we got some things we got to do, plus you’re having dreams about the things that we’ve been through, I’ve been quiet for three days because I know you’re trying to change but feeling all these feelings you have to admit is a bit strange, who got you through your roughest times ? so who’s judgement are you going to trust yours or mine, pick up the phone you know the number by heart, we coming back big put a few items in the cart

I’M BACK DON’T YOU EVER LEAVE ME AGAIN, I AM YOUR GOD; I COME BEFORE KIDS, FAMILY AND FRIENDS, FUK THAT JOB FUK THAT HOUSE FUK THAT SPOUSE, THEY ALL TALK BEHIND YOUR BACK IM THE ONLY ONE THAT CARES, YOU GOING THROUGH HELL RIGHT NOW AND I’M THE ONLY ONE THERE, NEXT TIME I PROMISE YOU MIGHT DON’T MAKE IT, WOW THREE DAYS WHY EVEN FAKE IT

#LEXICONKILLER

UNBIASED ABUSE

You ever had that one that you can’t get over, the more they beat you up the more you try to get closer, it’s like they have a Svengali hold over your very soul, you’re dealing with a master of strings, they have long evolved from the pinky ring

You make a mistake it’s a declaration of war, they make a mistake you getting up off the floor, I didn’t  think you majored in indentured servitude, I thought you were on some Elroy Jetson shit trying to get to the moon, I don’t care what color it is don’t let that black hole stop you, I’m not a rocket scientist but I know love’s not supposed to sock you, but ultimately it is your life to live, I just hope you don’t lose it just to find out somebody had fux to give

#LEXICONKILLER

UNBIASED ABUSE

You ever had that one that you can’t get over, the more they beat you up the more you try to get closer, it’s like they have a Svengali hold over your very soul, you’re dealing with a master of strings, they have long evolved from the pinky ring

You make a mistake it’s a declaration of war, they make a mistake you getting up off the floor, I didn’t  think you majored in indentured servitude, I thought you were on some Elroy Jetson shit trying to get to the moon, I don’t care what color it is don’t let that black hole stop you, I’m not a rocket scientist but I know love’s not supposed to sock you, but ultimately it is your life to live, I just hope you don’t lose it just to find out somebody had fux to give

#LEXICONKILLER

HIGHER POWER

No matter how cold the night may seem, don’t give up the serpent of old is trying to implement his scheme
He’ll put people in your life to make you second guess, the first one in hell trying to make you a permanent guest

It’ll be plenty of bumps on the road to glory, your life is a book it’s up to you to tell the story, cry every now and then to release the  pain, you’re an angel so your tears would be heavenly rain

Never give up always fight to the end, just intertwine your fingers when you need a friend, when it’s all said and done and you write the last chapter in your book, I’ll be waiting at the gates, we always knew you had what it took

Yeah I write haikus too

Pain in your eyes hurts
I was a coward playing
Pain in my heart earned

#HAIKUSFROMTHETRAP
#LEXICONKILLER
#MULTIFACETED
#APOETSPAIN
#ITOLDYOU
VIEWSFROMTHETRAP

VIRGINIA IS FOR LOVERS

Thank you for taking time out of your day to read my thoughts ✍🏾✍🏾✍🏾

DRUGZ..  how many of us need them??  DRUGZ… How many of us use them?? .. DRUGZ… How many of us need them?? Let’s be real

Everybody has a vice, some are accepted and some make people look twice, some roll up to forget and be at ease, some pop pills and blame it on their knees, one time I talked to a dude that huffed freon, I just listened as he told me about the high he on

Some break out the skis and go on holiday, not Christmas but Doc they act erratic in a way, others travel with a tourniquet and have to tie off to get their blast, if they aspirate this will be their last

Some people argue whether or not this one should qualify, but it has to be a drug if you keep drinking after your first D.U.I, you can chalk it up as just having too much fun, but it has to be a drug at least when you catch your second one, you figured it out so now you only drink at home, only problem is you drove everyone away so now you’re all alone

Not to leave anyone out we got the hardest working on the list, sell their daughters laptop for ten minutes worth of bliss, can fix the engine on everything from a 72 Impala to a Rolls-Royce wraith, swear on his mama grave and he was with her yesterday, come on baby I got you when my check come on payday, needless to say a week later he got the beats by Dre

DRUGZ..  how many of us need them??  DRUGZ… How many of us use them?? .. DRUGZ… How many of us need them?? Let’s be real

LET IT LONE

Let it lone time to turn the page go to the hobby store and buy you some sage, let the pain dissipate, in the fuk shit you don’t have to participate, take that energy and transform it into a tangible entity, the universe will place everything at your feet you don’t have to search for chemistry, it’s easy to lose yourself replaying prior events when you do that you welcome memories of nonsense, I’m not just speaking from an outside view, believe it or not I’ve played the fool a time or two, I’m just trying to give you the cheat code for everything I’ve been through, remember I’ve survived a terrorist and her insurgent crew

MAN CHILD

Went to see my boy I haven’t seen in awhile, incarcerated scar face now a man child, facing trial from one mistake made as a juvenile

What’s that conversation like? Sad and cerebral a different part of life, it’s definitely a different world books still your best friend, but you have to turn your spidey sense up to a 10, after you come off your 24-hour lock just play it cool and see where you fit in at in the box

Find peace in yourself before you get off the bluebird, it’s going to be a lot of he said she said but don’t run with the heard, this is where you better yourself try and read every book on the shelf no matter the topic; read books until your eyes roll in the back of your head and say stop it

Everything that is understood doesn’t have to be said and another thing don’t let anyone sit on your bed, we deal with where we are and not where we wish we could be, tighten up that face you’re going to be all right because you’ve got me