MY BABY COUGAR

I met you I didn’t properly vet you if I did I would have known that it’s damn near impossible to leave you alone
You had me gone at that first stretch I said to myself she did that for me I’m willing to bet you said you had someone but was ready for an emancipation like Katrina just hit and you were waiting on FEMA feeling real Haitian usually I wouldn’t mess up a happy home but you could make a preacher be bad to the bone anything that would be a red flag I convinced myself people change plus it’s not that bad I put my seatbelt on spark one up and get ready for the ride I don’t know if we’re in a car a boat or a plane I just hope we’re not on two dummy missions fueled by game

OLD EARTH

Who’s gonna run the family when the matriarch dies who’s gonna make sure that our flag still flies high who’s gonna make the hard decisions who can replace over eighty years of living
Listen to those stories they’re full of who you are listen to the stories they’re straight from the heart you can learn a lot about your future from their past sit down take notes like it’s class if you listen I promise you’ll learn something from the time before we had peace to the definition of elbow grease

DADDY LOVES YOU

I used to think I was a one of one until I had my son if I was the prototype he has to be the finish one I can see his mind moving trying to make his point proven and in a manner so pursuing his vernacular at his age should have him at least in the eighth grade conversations have me taken a back every other statement is how do you know that it’s like talking to myself younger but the me now he does things all day that make me say wooow really just wanted my son to know daddy loves him for infinity plus one 7.7 billion people on earth and I’m lucky enough for you to be my son

Just came out of a meditation, this is what came afterwards. Like I tell him even when you’re 30 you’re always gonna be my baby lol ( that facial expression is priceless)

SETTLEMENT CONFERENCE

This is what it sounds like when the tears hit the paper, bloodshot eyes so they red in nature, still not sure wether they’re sad or mad, not even sure if I miss what we had, but I been smoking all this smoke tryna smoke you out my mind, smoke till I choke and you still on my mind, found guilty in the court of love no fine, firing squad I think Cupid shot me this time, I wish I woulda stayed on the straight and narrow, instead I’m heartbroken from a got damn arrow, a inch given is a mile taken, and I’m sure I’m telling the truth but I could be faking, either way I think about you every day so I guess you won, but you have to look at me every day because you have the ONE

EVERY TRAP U.S.A.

Ain’t no future bright for me it’s dark wherever I dive, I’m from a place where its a struggle just to stay alive, jealousy hating and loose lips, I used to have a fleet until they started sinking ships, I used to have a arsenal until they started taking my clips, it used to be easy until the guillotine started cutting heads on the flip, I ain’t slept outside ever since the tent, and you best better believe I’m not repeating that incident, the way I look at it I have two judges, one in heaven and one on a bench, if I make enough money I can afford the best defense and the other I can just repent, coming from where I’m from the outcome is as certain as a shoulder shrug or a 44 slug

BE YOU

Bedroom on a thousand spit game on a million, after every break-up guess who’s the villain, I never made any woman do anything her heart didn’t already desire, each and every one was a willing buyer

That smell good what you smoking on, it gotta be good if it got you choking hun, nah don’t smoke to fit in with me, plus you gonna be late to where you have to be, lemme hit it once desire fulfilled, just remember this convo when I need a shield

What you sipping on the bottle look pretty, you grab it start sipping with me, fast forward I’m holding hair out the toilet aka no kitty, I’m on trash bad duty for the night, rubbing your back making sure you alright

I fell in love with you, I already love myself, you don’t have to do what I do for me to wanna breathe your breath, I love the team spirit and all, but if we don’t work I don’t wanna fear every call, I don’t want you walking around with feelings unresolved

JULY 25, 2010

One of the happiest days of my life up to that point because tomorrow I’m going home leaving River City you know the joint
My baby wanna come and pick me up but I got stops to make got my boy to pick me up who later ended up being a fake but that’s a whole different story that I’m not ready to go into
Told baby I’ll see you a little bit later I have some people to go check out but don’t worry your backs gonna still get blown out
Went to see mommy first both of us into tears we burst I think that was the longest hug ever like John McCain’s mom when she thought the next time she would see him was never
Next on to my Oma and Opa sweetest couple in the world got advice from my old earth now on the way to see my girl
Well pit stop first I gotta activate this phone make a few calls let everyone know I’m home
So now it’s 9:30 and we’re finally together it’s calm outside but in here it’s a torrential downpour type weather from the black silk sheets to the bathroom floor we were dehydrated got some Gatorade and went some more
The life changing moment was when the light came through the balcony doors I wanted to wake you up just to talk to you some more your spit game was better than mine we started planning a baby and with me it was fine
After that you took me to the Ugly Biscuit, ok if I had a time machine this is the day I would relive and after knowing the outcome I would have more passion to give not just in the bedroom but about our life that we live looking back you should have been with me on every stop if only I could rewind the clock than this madness would stop